I’ve gone back and forth over the years on whether or not to call myself a Christian.  For awhile there was nothing that made me more proud.  “I’m a Christian!” I would proudly declare to anyone within ten feet of me.  When you’re young (in your faith) you often don’t know the hurt and pain that word represents for so many people.  Depending on who you’re interacting with that term can represent a variety of things: arrogance, bigotry, war mongering, and hate to name a few.  It’s definitely a mixed bag and this has led many people to drop the term entirely.

When I was around 18 years old it began to dawn on me that the term “Christian” was really quite unhelpful, “We need a fresh start, we need God to do a new thing and that term is only dragging this new thing down.” I said to myself.  In the name of Jesus I renounced the titles Christian and Christianity, and with it most anything I deemed “old-fashioned” about the faith.  God was doing a new thing, we were the generation that wouldn’t screw it up like our forefathers had!  We called ourselves simply followers of Jesus or Christ followers.  Brilliant.  A few went even farther with the title followers of the way, citing an obscure reference to early Christians found in the book of Acts.  This was the fresh start we needed.  However, slowly but surely it began to lose it’s charm.

As more and more people jumped on the followers of Jesus bandwagon it began to look an awful lot like Christianity!  There were moments of a stunning beauty and moments of utter evil because, well… humans were involved.  Humans are sort of a mixed bag.  We love Jesus but then we lie, steal, and cheat.  We’ll feed the hungry on Sunday then verbally abuse our co-workers on Monday.  We raise our hands in praise on Wednesday then raise our fists to strike our brother on Thursday.  We are walking contradictions, hypocrites the lot of us.  I began to feel that this whole “followers of Jesus” thing was rooted in the worst kind of pride, it was a pride that distanced itself from weakness and failure, a pride that believed, “I’ll succeed where everyone else has failed”, a pride that said “My church is the true church and my community is one of the few that gets it.” We’re the new elect, the new chosen of God, the new hope of the world.

That’s enough to turn anyone’s stomach, isn’t it?

If it’s true that Jesus was among the failures and outcasts of his society then it seemed us followers of Jesus didn’t really have a place at the table for Jesus.

All this to say I’m back under the label Christian.  Yes it still sucks having all the baggage of the term, but I think baggage is part of the human story, my story, and I don’t want to distance myself from that.  As St. Augustine said “The church is a whore, but she’s my mother.” Like most things I don’t think it’s the literal term that’s the issue here, at least it wasn’t for me.  The issue was my heart and my pride.  I’m fine with people using terms other than Christian and Christianity to describe their relationship with God but what I’m not fine with is the in-grouping and out-grouping that happens.  It’s almost pharisaaical.

What should we do about poverty?  That’s the question haunting me lately.  It’s easy to be removed from the plight of those less fortunate than myself but following Jesus doesn’t give me that out.  When the world becomes your neighbor (which I think Jesus taught) then the world’s problems become your problems.  By extension I am now forced to consider poverty “my problem”, and that’s a big shift for me.  So what is the uniquely Jesus thing to do in this situation?  I’ve read the headlines, seen the images on t.v., and listened to the talking heads discuss, rehash, analyze, and argue over what should be done.  No one seemed to be questioning the fact that poverty exists or that it’s one of the true evils of our time (I mean how do I explain to my daughter that the problem isn’t that there isn’t enough food for everyone, it’s just that we can’t get it to them). The big question seemed to be what we should do about it?  It’s such a huge challenge.  I felt like the first thing I should do is educate myself.  I’m no economist but I figured there were books out there for someone wanting to try and understand, so I picked up the book The End of Poverty: Economic Possibilities For Our Time by Jeff Sachs from my local library.  However, I wasn’t even halfway through with it when I heard about the release of a book entitled Dead Aid: Why Aid Is Not Working And How There Is A Better Way For Africa written by Dambisa Moyo.  I haven’t read Dead Aid yet but after reading The End of Poverty and dozens of articles about Dead Aid I have quite a conundrum on my hands.  Let me explain.

The core argument of The End of Poverty seems to be something like this: the key to ending poverty is to help the world’s poor get a firm grasp on the first rung of the “economic ladder”.  If only we could get their economies up to that first rung then history shows us (Poland, Spain, India, China, etc.) that it will continue to climb.  In the case of Africa there are a handful of issues holding these countries back from the first rung: disease (like aids and malaria), lack of clean water, environmental challenges, lack of education, lack of infrastructure (roads and bridges) and poor government (among other things).  Sach’s argument is that what’s needed is for developed countries to commit billions of dollars over the next 15-20 years to counteract these challenges and get Africa on the first rung.  An analogy that comes to mind is the flywheel.  The most difficult revolution for a flywheel is the first one.  You push and push and push and it finally goes around once.  Then it’s a little easier the next time and even easier the next so on and so forth.  Sachs essentially argues that aid won’t solve everything but it’s extremely important to get the economic flywheel churning.

However, Moyo argues in Dead Aid that the problem is aid itself!  Aid is like a never ending cookie jar for government and it fosters corruption.  She cites that in the past 30 years Africa has garnered over 1 trillion dollars in aid and asks the provocative question “What good has it done?”  She argues that all aid to Africa should end within 5 years.  This would force African governments to stop waiting for handouts and engage in trade, microfinance, and private investing.  Aid is fine for natural disasters (like famine or flood) but right now it’s only hurting Africa… not helping.

Here’s an article that’s pro Dead Aid and here’s an article against it.  I may follow up with a post once I’ve read Dead Aid, however for now I think it’s a really important debate we should be engaging.  So what say you?  Is economic aid helping or hurting Africa?

Eric Lewis - Going Under

In: Art

11 Mar 2009

Eric Lewis blew me away with this rendition of Evanescence’s chart topping song “Going Under.”  It’s my understanding that abstract art is more about experiencing the art and artist than “getting it” or “finding the hidden meaning”.  Lewis gives us so much more than a song here, he truly gives us an experience.

I spoke at my church New Hope this past Sunday on the parable of the Good Samaritan in Luke 10. You can listen to it here. I had a long time to prepare and it was a true pleasure to spend time at the library, coffee shop, and Barnes & Noble researching, reading, writing, thinking, reflecting, and praying.

I had many sources of inspiration. One of them was a fantastic sermon I heard on the same topic by Rob Bell about two years ago… sadly it’s no longer available through their podcast. Also, the book Jesus The Jewish Theologian by Bradley H. Young, A New Kind of Christian by Brian McClaren, and Bible-History.com also served as wonderful sources of inspiration. I’m so blessed to interact with all these great thinkers and leaders.

 

Poor kid.  I’ve been to the dentist and I know how he feels.  Money quote: “You have four eyes.” Completely awesome.

Extremely interesting and insightful essay by Rev. Anthony Hughes where he discusses “…the differences between the doctrine of Ancestral Sin—as understood in the church of the first two centuries and the present-day Orthodox Church—and the doctrine of Original Sin—developed by Augustine and his heirs in the Western Christian traditions—is explored.”

I’ve read it through twice now and am still chewing on it’s concepts and implications for my own beliefs about God, Jesus, humanity, sin, atonement, and community.  I know this article comes from a perspective/ tradition that most of my readers (myself included) don’t often interact with- which is why I thought it may interest us.  Honestly it’s articles like this that have endeared me to theologians like Scott McKnight, Tony Jones, and N.T. Wright- much to the chagrin of some of my friends and fellow readers.  Not because I agree with everything they write but because they are comfortable interacting with theologians from every ilk and era of Church History.

P.S. Depending on how heavy the commenting gets I may not be able to jump in as vigorously as on our last topic.  In fact, just assume that I won’t be commenting at all on this thread… I need a break.  Heck, maybe we all do and not a soul will comment :)


Violence and War from Brett Tilford on Vimeo.
The conflict over the Gaza strip has got me to thinking about Christians and our stance on war. In this video I ponder why more Christians don’t question the use of violence- considering Jesus words about how we should treat enemies.

I thought this was lovely.  Enjoy.


A SHORT LOVE STORY IN STOP MOTION from Carlos Lascano on Vimeo.

The worship leader at my church, Steve Horvath, is headed on a mission trip this January to the middle east (can’t name the country here for security purposes) to help strengthen and encourage the believers there.  When I first heard about the trip it reminded me of the trips Paul and the other Apostles would take to spread the good news of Jesus in the 1st century.  I know that between his ninja worship leading and genuine compassion for people Steve will be a huge asset to the team he’s joining, the people of that country, and the kingdom of God at large.  So in the spirit of Jesus and the Advent Conspiracy would you consider supporting him this Christmas.  He needs to raise $2,700 and he’s currently $1,200 short.  To find out how to make a donation email him at steve(at)newhopechristian(dot)org.

Thanks so much all.

Checked facebook before I headed to bed tonight and received the following message from “Brett Trilford” of New Zealand.  Truth is stranger than fiction my friends.

About this blog

My name is Brett. I love my wife Maggie. We’ve been married since 2004. I’m an entrepreneur. My two businesses are Fuor and Nectar. I love new ideas. That’s why I have this blog. I also love: coffee, reading, endurance racing, singing, ultimate frisbee, and extremely long conversations. And oh yes, Jesus. I love Jesus.

Photostream

  • Photo 86
  • ee09482c65304986bc834c4000e0d06b
  • nectarlogo
  • IMG_0149
  • tecmo super bowl goodness
  • Picture 4